We are
merely pretending in life until, by a
cruel stroke of misfortune, or through the blessedness of a great upbringing,
or both, we are found dissolved by the horrors of life and the beauty of God.
Nowhere does God matter most than when we find
ourselves in a place where every single significant thing has turned forlorn
and hope has been thrown cataclysmically into the abyss. Strangely, this is
when we find God. Sometimes we never ‘knew’ God until all was lost.
God caught us, by his Spirit, in that
vulnerable place where we were exposed. He cannot despise a broken and contrite
heart. Only divine empathy unto blessing exists.
The more exposed we are the more power God
will tip into us; not power to coerce people to get our own way, but power for
life out of death, for hope in despair, for the presence of joy even in the
midst of pain.
Only God could explain such a paradoxically
victorious phenomenon. How do we find the glory of God we could never procure
of our own in the auspices of calamity? Only God knows. How wonderful that our
Lord is constantly turning existence upside down.
So, there is safety in sadness, for we are
catapulted headlong into the bosom of our great God.
When we know that safety in our sadness, by
experience that we can trust, we find the way into courage – a sort of bravery
that will give us the confidence to do what must be done.
God wants to gift us with the capacity to bear
and respond to reality, but he can’t give us the power to hold that capacity
until we are intentionally vulnerable; where we no longer protect or deny our
sadness.
The more open we are to opening up into the
world and to experience it full-on, the more open our Lord will grant us the
capacity to hold our own being together in the time of trial. But juxtaposed is
the fact that we must be humble, and we are humblest when we have no fear for
our negative emotional experiences.
Our Lord genuinely seeks us to live a real
life, not a fabrication.
A real life is one lived openly before the
heavenly host, and fully available to serve God and humanity. There are no
nasty secrets; no faith-faulty compromises; no prolonged journeys into the
unethical. There is only time for what might build others up; for what might
lead to the equipping of the saints; for what might be experienced and
established for the Kingdom of God.
A real life is an effective life lived to the
honour and glory of God. Such a life is strongly vulnerable and able to be
safely sad.
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Courageous life is found in the strength of
vulnerability. A secure life exists in the safety of ventured sadness without
fear.
© 2014 S. J. Wickham.
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