On Violating Important Relationships

This is a short and poignant article confessing remorse for the acts I’ve committed which were many as they were wrong.

There are many out there, many faces of people I see in my mind’s eye, who I’ve wronged.  Many in little inconsequential ways, but wrongs they were and that cannot be denied.  The trouble I have is I will continue to make mistakes, and deliver cutting transgressions, as we all inevitably do from time to time.

I have five men in mind.  There are others, too, but you men deserve an apology, first up, for the various wrongs I’ve committed against you at times over the length of our relationships.

What can I do?  I cannot take back what I’ve said and done.  I cannot make another attempt at serving you as God would’ve had me do in the first place.  Those times are done.  I understand that as well as you do.

But I can say I understand.  I can deliver you with the intent of doing better next time; from now on.  Some of our relationships are reconciled as good as we both are satisfied to leave them, but that doesn’t mean God can’t bridge that gap further.  I pray He does.

I could write here that I pray for your forgiveness, but in all sincerity it’s not what I deserve.  If you forgave me, that would be God’s mercy, but it cannot be my expectation.  Could I seek that your trust in me would be restored?  Again, I cannot and don’t expect that.  And are these words of a man with low self-esteem?  No, I don’t think so.  These are the words of a man who is duly contrite in accord only with the will of his God; a contrition that bears no glory to me, but does attest to God’s power to turn a person around through God’s glorious repentance; the blessing of reflection.

It’s a tragedy to transgress relationships so that remorse would endure.  But good are the blessings the burdened receive in confessing the truth.

© 2016 Steve Wickham.