When life has ended — in this very life — as if the life we thought we
had either never was, or wasn’t anything like we imagined it — we are forgiven
for feeling all but alive at all. The end has come, but the mortal body
endures. This existence then begins to torture us! We are then thrown about by
the swell and tossed about on the tips of waves. We hate our very being.
We never thought life (and God) could ever be this cruel.
Yet, alas, this is the life we have come to be situated in, for this
season. On the dark clouds of betrayal is the vision so restricted we cannot
see blue sky and we begin to believe it has vanished forever — perhaps it was
always a figment of our imaginations?
Having given all we ever had to this project — a career, a marriage, a
partnership — and to see the bottom fall out of it — to see it disintegrated on
the floor — what has become of us? Is this the end?
“Surely, please God, make it the end. I cannot take it anymore!”
It’s not the end, but an important beginning.
The end has come to that
manifestation of life, but a new life is now being prepared. Through the
massiveness of anguish, that threatened our want of existence, there is being
birthed in us the massiveness of life — a passion we never before had.
Birth is the perfect analogy. Birth is never a pleasurable experience.
Only the worst of pain can it be, but I’m only a man, and I can only report
what I’ve heard and been told.
As a woman gives birth to her baby, she might as well feel as betrayed
as anyone has for being the recipient of such a cruel experience. But moments
away is the bliss uncharted. Unencountered is the joy that is soon all hers!
That is the forgiveness she, alone, can bring through the birth canal,
and into all her world. If all other barriers to reconciliation are removed,
what could God be saying but to trust him with the rest?
Forgiveness is the faith to acknowledge it’s the only way through
betrayal.
If all else is held open to our forgiveness, and God’s invitation is
taken up, who are we to hold back?
If others’ healing is held captive to our own fears, will our torment
justify theirs?
We have the privilege in preferring peace; their peace is also the
restitution of ours.
© 2015 S. J. Wickham.
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